Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Me, Patience, and our boat

Patience and I are in the same boat. We both are having very large problems with our marriages. Patience and her man with drugs, and me and mine with infedility. I will not go any futher with the details except to say with Patience, she has moved out of their home, and I am sleeping in the other bedroom behind a locked door.

I have told Rusty that I am going to take 30 days and decide what I am going to do. Which at this point I have no ideal what the answer will be. I have told him that I can not just "sweep" this under the carpet like it never happened.

I had him move out on Friday, but allowed him to move back on Sunday, for the simple fact that I could not make my youngest daughter responsible for the care and feeding of him, since he has no income and no place to go.

Do I love this man, yes I do, he is the father of my children, and we have had a lot of good years, and been through many, many struggles as a couple.

Am I in love with this man? Well, that is the question that puts me in this boat. I think that somewhere somehow we both let this marriage slip away. For probably about the past 2 years we have been two people leading separate lives living at the same address.

So the question comes back what am I going to do? When I figure it out I will let you know. Please be praying for both Patience and her man, and me and mine.


1 comment:

beyond this moment said...

I am so sorry you are going through this. I will be praying for you.