Monday, August 10, 2009

I saw God.

UPDATE I talked to a friend of the family in the SUV. Both husband and wife are suppose to be released from the hospital either today or tomorrow (Tuesday). Praise God from whom all blessings flow!!!!

Patience and I went to Plainview on Saturday and were almost involved in this.

SUV ran a stop sign and pulled on to the highway. I was able to swerve and miss him, but the little red car in the left lane was not.
I am so thankful that I did not hit him, because I would have swung him around and this would have been a head on.

Woman and her son in this car were taken by ambulance to Lubbock with non-life threatening injuries. This is one awesome woman. When I got to her car she was already on the phone with 911. Thank God for air bags...

Husband and his wife in the SUV were airlifted to Lubbock. The wife who was not driving was the most seriously injured. The young man kneeling next to the car is their son, he was not involved in the accident, but was one of the first on the scene. Please be praying for this family. If I hear how they are doing I will update you.

Now to the most awesome part of this story. This is six year old J, she and her Yorkie were sitting in the back seat of the SUV. She WALKED away with no injuries and was taken to a local hospital to be checked out before she and her brother went to Lubbock to be with their parents.

Look again at the picture where her brother is kneeling. Not a dent or a ding in that door.

All I have to do is look at this smiling face, to know just how AWESOME my Father is.

If this isn't a miracle, I don't know what is.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Ok, I have to brag

Patience and I went to Plainview today, so she could visit her husband. We stopped in Lubbock on the way home and visited two of my favorite stores Mardel and Lifeway. I picked up the Me Myself and Lies workbook by Jennifer Rothschild for the LPM Summer Bible Study at Lifeway. But, I hit the jackpot at Mardel. See what I got for the sum of 66 dollars and some change.

Please look closely at the second picture. I scored an ESV Leather Bound Study Bible for $22.99, thank you Jesus!!! The front of the box has a sticker on it that says misprint.

When I die and get to heaven, my dream job would be the position of caretaker for all the Bibles that have also died and gone to heaven. Jews believe that anything that has God or any of the forms of our Heavenly Father's name written in it or on it can not be thrown away, but have to be buried. So, I want the job of caring for these wonderful friends that have been entrusted to us, to encourage, grow, correct and point us to Jesus.

If you know anything about me at all, it's that I am a Bible person. I love them, and I love to give them away. I do not know who this Bible is meant for, but until it's rightful person comes along I will enjoy it, and praise God for the gift of it. I am also a big believer in Discipleship. I think that when someone makes a profession of faith, that you should place a Bible in one hand and an accountability partner in the other. When you introduce someone to Christ, their reality is changed, and until they get their feet under them, they need someone to help this new reality stick. We are losing way to many people because of a lack of one on one discipleship (sorry I will get off that soapbox). Anyway if you are looking for a wonderful discipleship tool, my I introduce you to the New Believers Bible it was also included in my jackpot find. This is a Bible that I truly believe in for new believer or people seeking God. I have personally seen this Bible bring people to Christ.

I also picked up Anne Jackson's new book Mad Church Disease and can not wait to start it. If you live in or around the Lubbock TX area, she is going to be speaking at Turning Point Community Church on July 5th and in Dallas TX at The Oaks Church on July 12th. I found Anne when she was in India with Compassion International. A woman of God she is.

Then on top of that God blessed me with some good girlfriend time with Patience. The only way this day could get any better is if Jesus came and said let's go. If only it were today, me and my Bibles long for home.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

My Chair.

This is my quiet time chair. The place where I come and spend time alone with God. That is if I can get the cats out of it. If they are not in it. Elvis is. I guess that they are keeping my place warm for me.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009


Angela, McMama, and Raechel have all written a wonderful post in regards to B and April Rose. Please go and read it.

The blog has been removed, but B should not be, in fact Beccah should be at the top of each and everyone of our prayer lists, and before you go and get your hurt and your pout on, I will quote the words of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ who suffered far worse than we ever will to you, "Let he who is without sin cast the first stone." It is not our place to judge, it is our place to pray.

Pray also for Angela, McMama, and Raechel, that our most gracious heavenly Father will give them peace, rest, and wisdom. These ladies have shown us what it means to be the hands and feet of Christ, and to love without boundaries.

God is good all the time.

Please be praying

Couple of prayer request please.

My daughter Magan had some day surgery done today. She is sore and not feeling well. I am going to go over and help with the gbabies tomorrow, but after that she will be on her own. Taylor who is four is some help, but Brenden is just 16 months old, and Hayley is nearly 2 months old, so she has her hands full.

My friend Patience is having a CT Scan biopsy tomorrow on her Thyroid. There is a growth attached to the Thyroid. She has no insurance.

Please be praying for my friends Robert and Sue. Robert had a head on with a deer on his motorcycle back in April and progress has been slow. They have moved him from here to a long term facility in a larger area. So Sue is away from him during the week. This is the Caring Bridge Site. If you have the time please read through the messages left by visitors, the one from the Sheriff that was the first responders is very powerful.

Also be praying for me. I have been in a bit of a funk lately. The divorce is moving forward, and according to the kids, Rusty is wanting this over so he can marry the "love of his life" in August. I am trying so hard to be kind and not bitter, but when you are left with the bills and responsibility, while somebody gets "paid" to go play, it's hard.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Praising God

Go read this and be blessed.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Whole Heart Faith Week 2 Day 1

Well, like I said on FB today struggling...losing...struggling...maintaining...struggling.

And I do, I struggle with this walk every day. With finding time to spend in the Word and in prayer, then attempting to walk out what I am hearing. That is where I am failing...badly. I hear and I so want to do, but it's like I walk out of my refuge in to the world, and it just doesn't take to kindly to me wanting a whole heart faith that seeks after God. Either that, or I can be a woman of God at home, where it is safe, there are few distractions, no one to yell at, no one to jump on, no one to blame (except Elvis). Yet when I leave the house and join the world, there are way to many distractions. The biggest one being me. I want to fit, and I "hide" the fact that I am seeking God, so that others will not laugh and ridicule me. (I get that enough as it is). I had to go search out a poem that I wrote many moons ago that so seems to fit.

What Would Happen?

What Would Happen if I could see Jesus?
Would I sit and talk or show Him off?
Would He be a hit, or would He be ashamed?
Would He walk with pride by my side?
Or hide His face in embarrassment?
With my friends gathered round would He enter in
Or turn and walk the other way?
Do I really want to know, or am I afraid
What would happen if I could see Jesus?

I am finding it very hard to let go of my old "master". He is a devil of a taskmaster, and I do not like serving him. But he is the reality I know, and that is a cop out. I choose to cling to the old, while trying to grasp the hand of God. He is just out of reach. He needs me to choose to let go of the old master, before I grab hold of the One True Master. He is standing there arms open wide saying "jump baby, I've got you". And I try, oh I try. It's only the tips of my fingers touching the tips of the old master's, and I know it only a hop, skip, and a jump into my Father's arms. But, it's a million miles from my feet to His arms, and so I ease back feeling my fingers sliding across the old master's palms. I don't grasp it like I use to, and he does not grasp mine. Because he knows he doesn't have to, he holds me with fear. Fear of that chasm that is so deep and so wide that there is no way my Father can catch me before I fall. And I think, if He would just come get me, just snatch me up and carry me off, but He won't cause it my choice, and my will. So He stands there arms open wide, smile on His face, and a tear in His eye, just waiting, never tiring, never scolding, just waiting...

Sunday, May 10, 2009

My new bed partner

After the previous post, I thought I needed to lighten it up a little, and shock ya'll just a little. This is my new bed partner, we have been together since December 11th, 2008. I think he just might be a keeper. His name is Elvis, and he is a Hungarian Vizsla. This is also my unfinished living room.

This is what I see every day, as I walk up the driveway to the front door.

And there is no way that this can be comfortable. But he can do this for hours when he is chewing on something. In this case, it's a piece of wood from the wood pile.

Elvis is a gift from God. I found him on the 11th, turned 50 on the 13th, and kicked my previous bed partner of 25 plus years to the curb on the 18th. He came house broken and has had some training. Don't know what I did to deserve him, and don't know what I would do without him. He is the love of my life, bed hogging, cat chasing, shoe chewing, snoring, bad gas thing that he is. Now if I could just teach him to mow and take out the trash, I would have it made.

Whole Heart Faith Day 4 and my Mom

This is my Mom and 4 of her 5 great-grandchildren. I think that I have posted this picture before. It is one of my favorites.

This is a hard post. You see my Mother is dying. She is in the early stages of kidney failure and has chosen not to take medical action to extend her life. I understand and respect her choices. But at the same time it is breaking my heart. I am not ready to let my mother go, whether it is next week or two years from now. I am not through needing her, enjoying her company or having her messing in my life. She is the center around which my siblings, my children, and myself rotate. And without her, we are very likely to fall off our axis.

My Mother is going to be 78 years old this year, I hope, she has survived the death of two husbands, both parents, and one brother. She raised 3 kids alone for a lot of years, and was willing to do without so that we could have. We traveled as a family, to Six Flags over Texas at least once a year, and to Florida by car twice. We went to see family often. She gave my siblings and me a love of music and reading. We went to free art shows, and developed tastes for all forms of art.

She is not without fault because she is human, and can be as stubborn and hard headed as the day is long. She can hold a grudge, especially if you hurt one of her "chicks". She is a five year breast cancer survivor, and has been through 2 hip replacement surgeries. She is saved, but she and God got cross ways years ago and she walked away from Him, and will not discuss things of God with anyone.

Warts and all she is my Mom and I love her dearly. Or as we like to say, "I love her to the moon and back again, and that's a long way baby!"

God is tying this all together with the Whole Heart Faith that I am doing with Leigh from Speaking Thru Me Ministries.

I have to trust that my Father is working in my Mother's life, and that is all I need to know.

Scriptures that caught my attention today are Luke 12:31-32 But seek His kingdom, and these things will be provided for you. Don't be afraid little flock, because your Father delights to give you the kingdom. I love verse 32 Don't be afraid little flock, because your Father delights to give you the kingdom.

First time the word delight is used in connection with God is Numbers 14:8 where Moses tells the Israelites, "If the LORD delights in us, then He will bring us into this land and give it to us, a land which flows with milk and honey." Deuteronomy 10:15 says "The LORD delighted only in your fathers, to love them: and He chose their descendants after them, you above all peoples as it is this day." Psalm 16:3 As for the saints who are on the earth, They are the excellent ones, in whom is all my delight. Proverbs 8:30 Then I was beside Him as a master craftsman; And I was daily His delight.

It is hard at times for me to conceive that God delights in me! And on top of that, He delights in giving me the kingdom. Me the one that has said many times, thanks, but I can handle this. Go sit over there God until I get done with this sin, and a host of assorted other things, God still delights in me!! Wrap your brain around that one. I am still trying to. And if God delights in me, bottom feeder extraordinaire, faulted, sinful, self centered child that I am, then He delights also in my Mother, and is able to draw back what has gone astray.

Father, Thank you that I can open the hand that is holding so tightly to my Mother and trust her to You. Thank you that I can rest in knowing that even if I can't see it and she won't discuss it, that You are working in her life. Father, I want to ask so badly for a healing in her life, for both her kidneys and her relationship with You. But I know that the healing in your relationship is much more important that the healing in her body, and if it takes this to bring that healing about, I will bow to Your will. Father, I am undone to think that You delight in me! How and why are the first things that come to mind. But You are the one that chose me, and there must be something redeemable in this life, that will somehow some way bring You glory, or You wouldn't be drawing me closer. Thank you that You never give up on me, and that I never get to the end of Your grace, mercy, and loving kindness towards me. Thank You seems so small in light of all that You gave in order to have a relationship with me. Your Son, Father? You love me so much that You gave Your Son, Your only begotten Son on top of that, so that I would no longer be separated from You. How Father can I say thank you to that other than to give my all to You and say here take it, it's Yours to use as You deem fit. I love you Father, and I desire to serve You and worship You with my whole heart. In Jesus name Amen.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Whole Heart Faith Day 3

Luke 8: 18 has captured me and I am chewing on it. First part says: Therefore take heed how you hear. The word that I am stumbling over or having trouble with is how. This is an option word. You ask people how was your meal, how was your day, and how do you like your steak cooked. You make a choice. So how do you choose how you listen? With your head or with your heart? With ears wide open, or eyes wide shut. Then once you choose how you listen, you have to decide what you are going to do with it after that.

I have been avidly following the India Compassion Bloggers, almost to the point of stalking. Anne Jackson on her blog wrote an entry called "So whatcha gonna do?" In this entry Anne writes about the origins of Compassion International, and the tag line to the founder was "now that you've seen what you've seen, what are you going to do about it".

I think this applies very nicely to Luke 8:18 where Jesus says "Therefore take heed how you hear. Now that I've heard what I've heard, what am I going to do about it? Am I going to believe it all from Genesis to Revelation, and attempt to walk it out in my day to day, growing and changing, to allow God to renew not only my mind but my attitude. Or am I going to say I hear, I believe, and I have your number in case I need you. I have to be honest and admit I have done more of the latter, and am discovering that as a result of this choice my life is not running as smoothly as it could. So I have jumped on board with Leigh at Speaking Thru Me Ministries on this Whole Heart Faith. And believing that as I choose how I listen, that God will grow me into a child worthy to be called His.

Side note here. I am a West Texas girl, so I call meditating on the Word, chewing the cud. Interestingly enough, animals that chew the cud are called ruminants, and are said to ruminate, which also means to ponder or think upon. Now if I could just learn to be still and at rest while I chew, I would be doing good.

Leigh thank you so much for being obedient and taking us on this journey with you. I know that it is day by day, and will not end in a month or two.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Whole Heart Faith Day 2

Boy when I ask God for something with my whole heart, He will do it!!! Stayed up way to late last night and did not get up early enough for my quiet time, or so I thought. God told me this morning that I arrange Him around my day instead of my day around Him. So I didn't make it in to work as early as I thought I would. But the quiet time was well worth it. God is also gently telling me that I have chosen not to surround myself with godly people in my day to day real life. I place them on the side lines and let them cheer me on while I walk with people that know God, but do not KNOW God.

I want to do this thing to serve only Him, to dethrone foreign gods and idols. I have, in reading through Judges tsked the Israelites for not following God continually. Over and over it talks about how with no leader, the Israelites turned to other gods. God informed me that I have done this exact same thing over and over. It should not take a man to lead me into a real relationship with God.

Scripture that God has brought to my attention a couple of times in the past few days is Joshua 18:3 Then Joshua said to them children of Israel, "How long will you neglect to go in and possess the land which the LORD God has given you?"

I can't hold what I do not possess, and I can't possess what I do not fight for. I have to fight for my relationship with God so that it has meaning and value.

I am off to do dishes, get ready for bed and spend some time in the Word.

Leigh, Dori, and Denise, I am praying for you as I know that you are praying for me.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Whole Heart Faith Day 1

Whew Father it has been a day. A day in which I chose not to glorify or follow You. Father I lied, cheated, and stole today. I chose me over You yet again, and saw what a failure my day was. Well maybe not totally, I did speak to Stephanie about her situation, but felt like it fell on deaf ears.

Father I need to come bathe in the shower of Your forgiveness. It's just really hard to get there, because half the time I really don't feel like I mean it when I ask for forgiveness, I feel like I do it more out of habit then I do out of true repentance. Plus you know the minute I get up from prayer with You that I am going to go running straight back to that pig pen. Father cleanse me of my unrighteousness, then give me the strength and courage not to go back there again. Strengthen me for this battle, give me the tools and encouragement I need to throw the idol of self centeredness off it's throne and in the trash where it belongs.

Father I think one of the first things I need to do this thing is a church home. I want a place where I can serve. A place where I can be ministered to and that I can minister to others. I don't have to agree with all that they teach, I just need a home where I feel safe to be real, and people that will hold me accountable. I want a home Father. A place where I belong, and am welcomed warts and all.

Father give me a hunger for Your Word. You know I love it and that I believe it from beginning to end, but I don't crave it, I don't study it, and I darn sure don't live it. I want it to be real to me, to need it more than I need my next breathe. To be the plumb line by which I judge and correct myself. I don't want to be so spiritual that no one else can measure up, and I don't want to be so holy that the only way I can look at anyone is down my nose. I just want to be Yours. To be a usable vessel. Am I asking to much Father? Have I set an unobtainable goal? I hope not.

Father God, this is not beyond You, this is the desire of Your heart and I want it to be the desire of mine. To know You, to seek You, and to follow after You regardless of where You take me. To trust with all my heart that Your promise to never leave me or forsake me is true. To believe that You are faithful and just. Father give me Jesus, make Him very real in my life. Show me how to die to self and to allow the Holy Spirit to lead me in all things.

I love you Father I really do, and I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that You love me and that Your plans are not to harm me but to give me a future and a hope. Be that future and that hope in my life Father. Here I am Father, bags of sin and disobedience hanging off of me, mold me, shape me. Take this life and make it into something that is usable by You. I am heavy laden Father, please give me rest. Thank you for never giving up on me. In Jesus name Amen.

As I can see from the above prayer, self centeredness is an ugly thing. It's all about self, rooted in puffed up pride that sometimes hides behind low self esteem. Center of the universe, smart a@#&* know it all. Not a friend of God. Self centered is what defeated satan and got him kicked out of heaven. That statement alone should be enough to shut it down, but it's not. I take pride in the fact that I have accepted Christ as my personal Savior. That because I have bowed the knee and walked the isle, there is no way that I can go to instead I decide to live a hell on earth by choosing to live separated from Him. God is reminding me that I can not serve two masters that I will love the one and hate the other, and when I choose the wrong master...I pay the price. By being the self centered person I am, I negate all that Christ did, the horrific beating and death that He willingly suffered so that I did not have to spend an eternity in hell. I say by my actions that I know what He did, and I believe what He did, but I do not honor it with my life. I do not write these things for you to come and stroke my ego and tell me oh no Sallye that is not who you are. I write these things to be honest with my self, to hold my self accountable to what I was, and to spur me on to be what God sees me as.

Whole Heart Faith Week 1

Leigh over at Speaking Thru Me has started what she calls Whole Heart Faith. This is based on I Samuel 7:2-4 and 6-12.

If you have never met Leigh or you are wondering what this is about you can go here to find out what started this, and then go here to see what her week one is. Dori is also pursuing Whole Heart Faith and you can go here to see what she is doing. Denise is also choosing to pursue God and you can go here to read her post.

Leigh and Denise are chunking their weight, and Dori is choosing to let go of idleness in favor of spending time with God and in pursuits He chooses.

Me, I could kick either one of these off the throne since I bow to both, but I think where God is calling me is my self-centeredness. Oh, I can throw on the spiritual suit and look goood. I will bankrupt myself to assist others, especially my kids. And when the mood strikes and the Holy Spirit knocks me to my knees, I can pray for others. But to come before my Father and say this ain't working, I can't or rather won't do. I had much rather wade around in the shallows, then climb out, step back, run fast, and jump as far as I can into the deep things of God. And you know what's so funny is that I have been there. I let God have so much control, that I would stand in my closest and ask Him what I was going to wear that day. But I let p-r-i-d-e get between us, I got to the point that I thought I was the only one slapped down, and instead of getting up and going ok, I need to work on that, I turned and walked off. Now I want to come back with my whole heart, , rid myself of foreign gods and idols, to commit myself to the Lord, and to serve only Him.

So I need you to pray for me, as I pray for you. To be honest with me, and to believe that slowly step by step this is doable.

Father God I ask that you show me how to set aside myself and to choose You. Father, I come before You with my whole heart asking, no begging that You draw me to You. That You become the LORD in my life, that I will fall head over heels in love with Jesus, and that I learn to lean all my weight on You. More than anything else Father I need the courage to take that leap into the deep end, knowing that You will be there to catch me. Father watch over each of us as we work to toss idols and foreign gods out of our lives. Strengthen us for this battle, be our shield. Let all that we do bring glory to You, and point not to ourselves but to You. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

This is what I did today....

This was my world today. Taylor the oldest did not want her picture taken today, but we play too.
I would very much covet your prayers for Magan and Kevin, as the adjust to having 3 childern under the age of 3.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

I have a new profile picture

This is my new profile picture. Got a new camera, was at oldest daughter's house, and left new camera sitting on the dining table. 6 yr old grandson turned camera on and took this picture, of his younger sister and I love it.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

I am listening to

Miss Susan Boyle sing I dreamed a dream and Cry me a river. I keep them pulled up on YouTube and go back and forth between the two. I do not tire of listening to this woman sing, and knowing her back story, it just makes it that much more profound. I am hoping and praying that the "powers that be" do not change her look at all, because she is the perfect package just the way she is. I can not wait to see the next song she sings for Britian's got Talent.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

1st ad 15th Memory Scripture

Memory Scripture for 2nd half of April is

Deuteronomy 33:3 NKJV

Yes, He loves the people;
All His saints are in Your hand;
They sit down at Your feet;
Everyone receives Your words.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Are you holding the leash or the harness?

I am a very visual learner. God over the years has used images and examples from my every day life to teach me things.

A little background for where I am going. I was "raised" in a Church of Christ, saved in a Southern Baptist Church, and have since attended both denominational and non-denominational churches. In all of these, I was "taught" about dying to self daily and being lead by the Spirit. Strange thing is everyone talked it, but no one taught it. So here is this 20 something new Christian that feels like she has "missed the spiritual boat" so to speak, because she was waiting at the airport for her flight to nowhere.

Well, my Father being my Father, saw this quandary and stepped in to show me what it meant to be led by the Spirit. This is something that I have not always applied to my life, but have never forgotten.

Early in my walk God gifted Rusty and I with two friends, Dorothy and Tess. Dorothy had lost her vision, as a result of juvenile diabetes, and Tess was her Golden Retriever guide dog slash best friend. If you saw one you saw the other. Dorothy refused to go anywhere that Tess did not go. Even if I was the one being Dorothy's "eyes", Tess was still with us, only as a tag along and not the guide.

During this time, I was questioning God about what in the world it meant to be led by the Spirit. I just could not seem to wrap my brain around this concept. I remember God very clearly speaking to me that being led by the Spirit was the exact thing that Dorothy and Tess were showing me every day. You see, Dorothy had been gifted with a guide that had been specifically trained to be her eyes. Tess's job was to guide Dorothy safely from point A to point B, to be on the look out for things that could cause Dorothy to stumble, and to keep Dorothy moving forward. The minute Dorothy put the harness on Tess, Tess knew that she was on the job, and she would not be distracted. When Dorothy grabbed hold of the harness, she had to place all her trust in Tess, that Tess would not lead Dorothy into danger, or just walk off and leave her. Sound familiar? When Dorothy and I would go shop, she would still take Tess, but would lean more on me, and even though Tess was in her harness, Dorothy would lead her around by the leash.

God showed me that I have to be like Dorothy, and be blind to the world around me, dying to self daily. Reach down and grab hold of the harness of the Holy Spirit, to trust that He will lead me, guide me, and protect me, as He has been specifically trained to do. Get so dependent on Him, that if you see one, you will see us both, or less of me and more of Him, and that functioning without Him is not an option. Or, I can continue to allow others to lead me where they will, as I am attempting to lead the Holy Spirit around on a leash.

Dorothy and Tess taught me lots of things during the course of our friendship, but the best thing...What it means to be led by the Spirit.

I have attempted to lead more than I have been led, but I have never forgotten this lesson, and God in His infinite wisdom, grace, and patience keeps taking the leash and placing my hand around the harness.

So are you holding the leash or the harness?

Dorothy, Tess I love you and miss you much. Dorothy, I can not wait to get home to heaven so that you can lead me around for a change.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Please pray for B and Baby April

Here is B's blog, I have added her to the Please pray for in my sidebar. This is a young woman that needs or prayers and understanding.

And this beautiful young lady is April.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Betty Crocker and Make a Wish Please GO VOTE

Please go here and read, then after reading GO VOTE!!! Betty Crocker is making a wonderful contribution to the Make A Wish Foundations that we choose. So, go see Stacie's blog and GO VOTE...we will be making the wishes of some very special children come true.

You will have to sign up on the Betty Crocker website, it only takes a minute, and you can vote once a day till the contest closes.

Go read and vote. You may never know who's wishes you will be making come true, but our Father will.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

1st and 15th Memory Scripture

Well, it's the first of the month and time again to share the scripture that God has laid on my heart to commit to memory between now and the 14th of April.

This scripture really spoke to me about who I am to God. So many times I focus on who God is to me, that I need to be reminded who I am to Him. To remember that this is a two way relationship and that I did not choose God. He chose me before the beginning of time.

For someone that remembers what it feels like to be chosen last for playground and PE games, it is very freeing to know that God "picked" me.

Deuteronomy 14:2 NKJV

For you are a holy people to the LORD your God, and the LORD has chosen you to be a people for Himself, a special treasure above all the peoples who are on the face of the earth.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

I am so spoiled!!

And here's why.

I had mentioned on my FB that I needed a new Bible. I do have several, and they are all well used. You see, I have this nasty habit of trying to live on an old word from God, instead of getting a fresh one. Which means in times of need, I go back to the notes in my Bible, instead of just to my Bible. So, my Father only allows me to use a bible for about a year, then He makes me put it up and start over.

And I do love me the Word, the smell and the look of a new Bible just waiting for me and God to put our finger prints all over it.

Well, I had planned to go to our local Family Christian Book Store to scope some out, but I had really rather go here. Mardel, heaven on earth to a Bible person. The parent company of Mardel is the one and only Hobby Lobby. They try to keep the store radius within 450 miles of OK City to allow for the best delivery of merchandise to the stores. I have begged and pleaded with Headquarters and God for a couple of years now for a store here in San Angelo all to no avail. Sadly, the closest one was in Midland, which is about 200 miles from here.

But alas, all is not lost. My friend and I made a trip to Abilene today to find the TDC facility where my friend’s husband is being housed. We found the facility, shopped for a while then had a late lunch at Abuelo's. I walked out to smoke looked across the road and what did my eyes spy...

I almost fell to the ground!!! I stood there in shock for a minute then started praising my Father, who knows this child so well, and gave her exactly what she needed when she needed it! I went back in the restaurant told my friend that I needed to make one more stop and off we went.

I think that the inside of a Mardel is a small glimmer of what Heaven will be like. Imagine with me if you will a wall the width or length of the store that is nothing but Bibles. Every kind imaginable, and you can sit and browse at will, open all you want, flip pages, hug, kiss, smell, and read, till you find the one that is the exact fit.
I bought one of these

And one of these

But, this is the new fav that will be getting lots of use over the next year or so.

I am not ashamed to admit that I am spoiled. I am after all the apple of my Father's eye, and He knows what I need when I need it. Oh, I also bought some clothes and shoes, they are in the bags waiting to put up, but not my Bibles. They are already in use. God is way to good to this undeserving child.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

1st and 15th Memory Scripture

Ms. Moore over at the LPM Blog is hosting 1st and 15th scripture memory . We are in the process of committing to memory 24 scriptures from January to December 2009. We are to memorize twice in each month the 1st and the 15th.

Mamma Beth did a video guide to help us with our memorization. Her guide lines went with the word RENEW

R read it
E examine it
N need it
E echo it
W wield it

This is based on Romans 12:2 NKJ "And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.

I think that I skipped part of the month of February, but I am back and the scripture for this part of March is one that I definitely need.

Psalm 51:10 NKJV

Create in me a clean heart, O God. And renew a steadfast spirit within me.

I have been spending a lot of time wallowing in the pit these past few weeks. I have let people have control of whom I talk to and what I post on FB and the blog, out of fear. Fear that something I say will be used against me. I am done with that. My soul trust in You; and in the shadow of His wings I will make my refuge. Until these calamities have passed by. He has delivered me from the power of darkness and conveyed me into the kingdom of the Son of His love. And in the wilderness where I saw how the Lord my God carried me, as a man carries his son, in all the way that I went until I came to this place.

I have not been wielding my sword, in fact I laid it down and let someone else use it against me.

I was reading in 2 Samuel this morning and found a scripture that just made me go I want that.
2 Samuel 23:10 He arose and attacked the Philistines until his hand was weary and his hand stuck to the sword.

I want my hand stuck to the sword, so that even when I weary, it can still be wielded by the Spirit of God.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

I had a bad day.

I had a bad day on Friday, and was watching Oprah's Valentines Day Special, when my doorbell rang and when I went to answer it there was this package sitting on the porch. Guess what was in it?

Sweet, sweet siesta Wendy sent me all of these goodies and included that kindest words that just ministered to me. I can not thank her or Miss Patty enough for the kindness she has shown to me.

Thank you Wendy, you are my Valentine in Christ.

Please add to your prayer list

Just added another name to the Please Pray for list.

The McClenahans. Their names are Joel and Jess and earlier this week they buried their 11 month old daughter Cora. Cora lost her battle with cancer. Please visit their blog read their story and leave a comment to encourage them. Then click on some of the Blogs in their side bar and encourage their friends also.

We as the olders need to encourage the youngers, and even though we may not personally know what it means to survive the death of a child.

You never know when something so simple as "I praying for you" can change a whole day.

Friday, February 13, 2009

Gonna take a big bloggie break

I have been informed that there is a spy and I use this word loosely whom is stalking both my FB and my blog looking for anything I am writing to use against me in a court of law.

So until the divorce is final you will probably will not find me here and very few will have access to my FB page.

Sad that it had to come to this, but there are those that have the attitude that anything you say and do can and will be used against you at a later date.

Please Please Please continue to lift Rusty up in prayer, he needs it very badly.

Love you all,

Sunday, February 1, 2009

LPM 1st and 15th memory scripture challenge.

I am weeping as I am writing this post. Beth Moore over at LPM is hosting 1st and 15th memory scripture. Hop on over there if you are not signed up and join in the getting of God's Word down in to the marrow of you bones and your spirit.

I so wanted a "get him" scripture this time. Something that I could stand on and know that the garbage that Rusty is spreading to his mother and my children would bite him in the butt.

But no, I tried Lamentations 3:52-96 and it didn't fit. I searched all of the sic'em scriptures in the Psalms, wept and cried, and yelled this is how I feel, God.

Instead in my reading of 1 Corinthians God said here it is.

1 Corinthians 15:58 NKJV

Therefore my beloved brethren, be steadfast immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that your labor is not in vain in the Lord.

1 Corinthians 16:13-14 NKJV

13 Watch, stand fast in the faith, be brave, be strong.
14 Let all that you do be done with love.

I have to stand, I have to be kind to a man that is telling his mother and my children that I had several affairs in the 26 years of our marriage.

I am so mad and hurt. I go see a lawyer on Tuesday and possibly have to counter file because of the reason that he stated when he filed.

I wanted get him God and got be kind.

My Father loves me more than I can say, and He refuses to let me have this garbage in my spirit.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Please be praying.

For baby girl Harper. She is in critical condition at the NICU in Tulsa. Her family's blog is to the right under please pray for.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

I have a new look!!!!

I have a new look and it is all thanks to Bethany over at Beyond this Moment. She took pity on this poor computer idiot and fixed me up just fine.

I told Bethany that I love the look, but not near as much as I love her. She is the daughter of my heart, and I am so blessed to have her in my life.

When you get a chance go check out her blog, she is pure beauty!!!

She even gave me a signature. Oh she is way to good to me!

Memory Scripture 1st and 15th

Beth Moore at Living Proof Ministries has challenged the siesta's to memorize new scripture on the 1st and 15th of each month. You can read about it here.

My memory scripture for the 15th is

Colossians 1:13 NKJV

He has delivered us from the power of darkness and conveyed us into the kingdom of the Son of His love.

I love the word conveyed in this scripture and it drove me to add this scripture to my 15th memory scripture:

Deuteronomy 1:31 NKJV

and in the wilderness where you saw how the LORD your God carried you, as a man carries his son, in all the way that you went until you came to this place.

In Beth's scripture tutorial she said that we need to need the scripture that we are memorizing like we need our next breath. And in this season of my life I do need these scriptures, I need to know that He is carrying me, that where I am is not where I will be forever.

I did not post my memory scripture for the 1st, so I will do that now, and hopefully you will see what God has been telling me since my world fell apart on December 19th 2008.

Psalm 57:1 NKJV

Be merciful to me, O God, be merciful to me! For my soul trusts in You: And in the shadow of Your wings I will make my refuge. Until these Calamities have passed by.

One of the coolest things that God has shown me in this scripture is that shadows are always moving and changing. So in order to make my refuge in the shadow of His wings, I have to keep moving with Him. This is a place of refuge but not a place of sitting still.

God has just been pouring into me for the past few weeks, and because of that; most times I am at peace about moving forward without Rusty as my spouse. I do have set backs and anger is always waiting just below the surface to jump out and grab me. I am making my refuge in the shadow of His wings, and He is carrying me as only He can. God is good to this weak weak woman. His mercies are new everyday and I am so grateful for that.

In Him,

Thursday, January 8, 2009

New Years Resolution

I got a revelation today. I was reading Missy’s post where she was talking about her new years resolutions and how they are do able. On her list she included that this year would be the year of their marriage, and that she would read through the Bible in a year.

I started to leave her a comment about how if she and Walker will make their marriage the top priority, that everything else will fall in place. This is where I got the revelation, because in truth if Missy, me and you will make reading through the Bible in a year the top priority then everything else has to fall into place.

You see, God tells us that His Word is a lamp to our feet and a light to our path Psalm 119:105. So if we don’t have the flashlight out how are we going to see where to step, and if we don’t keep carrying the lamp how are we even going to see to find the path? A one year Bible is broken up into 365 readings, that just enough for each day. And I can promise you that if you are spending time in your Bible on a daily basis that where you are reading is where you are walking. The Jews for centuries have been reading through the Torah (Genesis to Deuteronomy) on a yearly/daily basis, and they believe that you should see where you are reading being walked out in your life.

So regardless of what other resolutions you have made for this New Year, let’s make a resolution to make this a year of living in the Word. Of not losing the flashlight, or setting down the lamp. Of believing that where ever we are reading that we will see it being lived out in our lives. That as God has promised that if we will meditate on His law night and day that we will be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that bears fruit in season, whose leaves shall not wither, and whatever we do shall prosper.

What a blessing is waiting for us, if we will just carry the Lamp..

In Him,


Thursday, January 1, 2009

I have changed my bloggy ID

After much thought and prayer I have changed my bloggy ID from Rusty's wife to Sallye.

I did not know that this would be one of the hardest changes that I would have to make. Changing Locks on the house, moving around furniture and buying a new bed were easy and fun. But changing the ID, that was hard.

This is a step in a new direction. I'm not real sure of the footing here. I have been Rusty's wife for over half of my life. I will be honest and tell you that I do not miss Rusty. I do not miss his presence in my house or my life. My arms do not ache and neither does my heart. God has poured out peace that you would not believe in this.

I am moving forward where ever that is, and I am doing it as Sallye.