Thursday, June 19, 2008

No Other Gods Week One

OK, So lets talk about this.

Beth Moore in her instructions for the first week said:

To please share what you perceive as your biggest challenge toward walking with God victoriously this summer.

Me, I am the problem. I have all this wonderful HEAD knowledge, but no, zip, zero, Nada HEART knowledge. It is like there is this huge wall between me and God. Who built it, me.

Those that know me say that I am kind and generous, an encourager and a good listener. Which I am sure that I am. You see God does use me in spite of me.

I am a very angry person, most people do not see it, but inside I have to be angry about someone or something all of the time. I have this face I put on for the public, but home it's another story.

What does it say about a person, when their first thought on seeing some one is not a kind one?

I want easy, and with this there is no easy. I am afraid, I am afraid to tear down the wall, because...

I don't think I can even go there.

Am I posting this to get sympathy? No I am being honest first with my Father, and second with me.

The memory verse for the study is Jude 1:24-25:

24 Now to Him who is able to keep you from stumbling,
And to present you faultless
Before the presence of His glory with exceeding joy,
25 To God our Savior,
Who alone is wise,
Be glory and majesty,
Dominion and power,
Both now and forever.
Amen.

My Father is able, if I am willing.

Sallye

2 comments:

beyond this moment said...

Oh Sallye... you aren't alone siesta! You definitely aren't alone. I saw your comment on the LPM blog and I am so sorry you are struggling right now.

I will be praying. Is there anything more I can do to help? (my e-mail is always open).

Michelle V said...

Sallye,

God is really showing me a lot of things through the NOG study also! I just love that He never gives up on me because we have gone through some of this stuff before and here I am again!

Love ya
Michelle